There are many problems that seem insistent to stand in our way as writers, no more so than not being able to find the words. A brief pause while we search the back catalog of our brains to find that word- that word, you know – the one you know the meaning to, but can’t think of the actual word. Then there’s the nights spent surfing the net between every two sentences, because – y’know, procrastination is so helpful. And then there’s the days that stretch into weeks, sometimes months, where we can’t write a damn word. Off the writing wagon we tumble.
I’ve been harping on about this for a while, mostly because I am just so happy that I can write again, but those months where I couldn’t write, they were pretty damn awful.
As someone that loves to write, the thought of not writing is just not a nice thing to think about. The moment I finished Fractured Immortal – the point where there was nothing more I could do and it was pending release, I felt happy, satisfied. I did it! After all that time, my book was finished. So I decided I’d take a few nights off. Maybe a week, maybe two. Surely it would be nice to just sit down and watch TV or maybe read more of the books on my TBR list, right? Wrong. I managed approximately half an evening. At first I felt kind of nice. The I started to feel a little restless, then downright agitated. I missed writing. I guess it’s a compulsion – I have to write. So I started my next book that night and, wahey! I was happy again.
But we can’t always write. The words don’t always come. I can cope with a few nights of that, but as it rolls into weeks and, like lately, months, it becomes unbearable. I use music to inspire me, but the inspiration never came. I don’t know how to get out of this rut, I don’t know what magical thing triggered inside my brain and released the words. I know that a lot of people coaxed me and tried to help, which was awesome, but they’d been trying to help for weeks. It was actually a suggestion from my CP that got me back at it, but I wonder if that suggestion had come two weeks earlier, would it have garnered the same outcome? I don’t know. I wish I knew the answer. I guess we all do, otherwise there would be no such thing as ‘writer’s block’.
I just want to let you all know, that no matter how long you go without writing, you will get back to it at some point. So, if you’re in the writers pit of despair, yes it is indeed crap, but it won’t last forever.